Chapter 5: What Is the Question, Again? I am not going to obsess here about the "why." Why my mind does what it does (i.e. house the D) is an absolute mystery to me. Today's obsession is more about, "What now?" Now that we have ourselves this situation, find ourselves in this pickle, facing what sometimes feels (as it has these past few weeks) like a fight to the death between sanity and non-existence, what the heck am I going to do about it? I don't diss the "why." I am a lover of "whys." But, at some points in life, we have to intentionally shift the focus from one line of query to another so we can keep breathing, feeling, and living.